Thursday, November 6, 2008

One Of Those Days

Yesterday was one of those days. Did you ever have one of those days? I did. And yesterday was it.

It was one of those days that started with one of those weeks. You know the kind of week where you are going along just fine until one day, even though you weren't planning on getting pregnant again so soon, you find you are spotting and cramping a little. All the familiar signs start popping up all over. Still, the stick doesn't say you are pregnant, but your late. And that just doesn't happen. And you're fine with it. Even though it wasn't planned. Again.

And then the more you think about it, the more you like it. And you start planning and dreaming about it. And you start getting really excited. You start to think that sometimes the best things in life start unplanned.

And then you begin to feel like crap. Like, serious crap on a stick. Blaaahhhh. Kind of crap.

And what do ya know you get your period. And you aren't really depressed, cuz the stick already told you that you weren't supposed to believe you were pregnant, but somehow you did anyway. Even though you didn't originally want another baby right now. And you weren't trying anyway. Being really careful even! So, you're not depressed. Nope.

But in the back of your mind there were those plans. So maybe just a little disappointment? But not depressed.

And anyway. There is always next month. Right?

So, yeah. It was just one of those days.

44 comments:

Mel said...

Awww Kat...I can safely say I've never had one of those days...but I've had tons that started with, "I wonder if my baby has been born yet...I wonder if her birth mother is taking good care of her...I wonder where she is...I wonder how long I'm going to have to wait to see a picture of her sweet little face..." Somehow I think *my* those days and *your* those days are pretty similar.

Hugs!

OHmommy said...

Oh Kat. I have many of those days. Of course there is always next month and next.

What does the husband say? Sorry, I had to go there. wink wink

It is all in God's hands. Just hang on.

Candy said...

oh gosh.

I have had this day soooooooo many times.

I'm thankful that even though I would have had my baby sooner, she didn't come until her brother was five- so down I have all these preschool years with her alone!

hope your week looks up.

Krystyn said...

Oh, Kat...I'm so sorry. Yes, there is always next month (but I know that hurts to have people remind you).

I guess, there is always practicing until the time comes again next month ;)

Wouldn't it be nice if God let us in on his plan..just every once in a while?

wright said...

I have had those days. I just hope things turn out the way you want - when you want.

Mom24 said...

{{{hugs}}} I've definitely been there. It's amazing how quickly those plans become real.

Courtney said...

Yep btdt and it is horrible. Once you get the feel of the idea it is snatched away and then you realize that you actually might have been happy about it. Oh well you knwo what they say: Practice makes perfect! so get to practicing lol :)

Dawn said...

I've definitely had those types of days. I'm sorry...I know that's rough.

Tonya said...

I had those days every month before we had our 4th baby and now I'm so Happy to see my friend!

ewe are here said...

Hugs.

Tracey said...

I've far too many of those days. I think women should have a button (say, a belly button?) that pops out when fertilization occurs. That way, there is NO guessing or excitement or sadness or confusion...

Sorry it was one of those weeks and days...

Stephanie said...

Honey, I'm currently living those days... I totally get it.

Megan said...

Yes, there is always next month. Sorry it was a bad day!

April said...

I SO feel your pain. Been there a couple of months ago (I too blogged about the whole depressing scenario), and even though I started off saying to myself "You are NOT pregnant." I still went out and bought my hubby a book on being a Dad, just in case. And when that stupid, dratted late period came, I cried,heart-broken, for days. :-(

I'm so sorry for the disappointment!

Cyndi said...

Oh ya, I've done that. I'm not sure if I was relieved or dissapointed.

Bren said...

*hugs* Yep, been there too. When the time is right...

imbeingheldhostage said...

I do know those days and can completely sympathize with this moment-- even when we were "done" I still found myself checking for the signs in half anticipation, half terror.
You have a lot going on these days, I hope things steady out for you soon.

Tammy said...

So sorry about the disappointment...there is always next month. I hope everything works out for you.

Tammy said...

So sorry about the disappointment...there is always next month. I hope everything works out for you.

wheelsonthebus said...

yep -- you put it just right. i am sorry!

anglophilefootballfanatic.com said...

Love the new background. And, you know the best thing about NFP, right? There's no waiting period before trying - you just look again at next month.

Danielle said...

AW!!! I am happy and sad with you because one you weren't planning because of the move and all... sad because you were kind of at one point a couple of months ago contiplating having another one....And yes there's always next month... I'm to the point were I feel like I want another but I know I should wait a little longer so that I can enjoy my first one and be able to move when he finally starts to walk!!! Everything happens when it happens!!! Sorry you had one of those days!!!

Elaine A. said...

Damn period. GAH!

I hope and pray that things work out just as they should girl... Chin up!

maggie's mind said...

Hugs to you, and yah, sometimes it's the unexpectedly finding yourself hoping thing that really gets you, even if it's still fun to kind of let the hope happen.

Jill said...

Two years of those days....

Yes, I can absolutely relate.

Thinking good thoughts for you - though not sending you any karma... clearly I need to recharge mine as well.

Robyn said...

I've had that feeling once and I think I got my period the same day that my daughter had a very bad day and I wondered what I was thinking. No seriously, if you are trying I hope it happens for you.

Kellan said...

I am sorry you had a bad day - week! I didn't know you were considering having another baby - good for you! If you are wanting it then I am sure it will happen soon - I hope so. Take care - Kellan

Kelli @ Gohn Crazy said...

*hugs* those days SUCK!

Haley-O said...

You want ANOTHER BABY! Wow. Go girl! :) Sorry it didn't happen like you'd hoped this month. Next month, indeed. :)

Chaotic Joy said...

Kat! I know you're "not really depressed" but I'm still sorry. I know those kind of days.

CC said...

Hugs! I've had 1000s of those days and never had a positive "stick"... Actually, I probably won't blog about it, but this weekend marks a very momentous occasion. I will go back on the pill the weekend. For the first time in 8 years. Thus blowing even my mom's "maybe one day...." chance that I'll get pregnant. We're done. I will not be a mother by birth. This weekend will solidify that.

CC said...

Now that I've written that out, maybe I will blog about it. What do you think?

Roxy Wishum said...

No, I have never had one of THOSE days. But you did a great job of capturing the emotional swings that all of us experience at times. Some of us are fortunate enough to never experience them magnified by a period. From thoughts you have shared before, I am guessing that you already believe that "all things work together for good". May today be a great day.

Kelly said...

I remember having those days!! It makes you think though doesn't it?? Maybe you ARE ready now, who knows. Like you said, there's always next month

Kat said...

Thanks everybody! It really did make me think that maybe sooner was better than later. I'm not sure yet. :)

OHMommy- Actually, Todd was a little disappointed we weren't pregnant though he didn't think we were in the first place (we REALLY weren't trying). But it was nice to see him excited at the thought.

Kelley said...

I had many days like that last summer before I finally got pregnant with my daughter. I had to wait a long time for her and the pregnancy nearly killed me, but she is so worth it. I hope you get a new bundle of joy started soon. :)

Cara said...

Kat- I had a few of those days. The day I found out I was pregnant with the baby I prayed all day that my period was not starting. Thankful it did not and the stick was positive. For many months prior to that each month I had the same little fantasy that ultimately made me a little blue when it didn't happen.

Livin' out loud said...

BEEN there and its not pretty :-)
Hope things are looking up now!!
XX
Susan

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

I've had that conflicted feeling with a late period, too.

Lindsay said...

Oh, I know all to well what kind of day that was. I pray I don't have too many more of them, quite frankly. And really - how cool that hubby was excited!!

painted maypole said...

oh... that mixture of relief and disappointment. i've been there

Hilary said...

Ah yes, I remember those days well. I would get over the disappointment part really quickly though. Relief always won out.

I hope tomorrow is a better day.

Karen Deborah said...

wow what is totally cool is this let you both know that you'd like another baby. Who would've thought a haircut could do so much. Great idea babies are wonderful.

Lisa said...

How bout you do lots of "practicing" this month? Todd will like it, I promise :)

Words To Live By

Be grateful for each new day.
A new day that you have never lived before.
Twenty-four new, fresh, unexplored hours to use usefully and profitably.
We can squander, neglect, or use them.
Life will be richer or poorer by the way we use today.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could;
some blunders and absurdities crept in;
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be
encumbered with your old nonsense.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson