Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Missin'

Just a few hours. Just a few hours and he'll be home. I can make it.

Yes, the house was cleaner while he was gone. One less pair of dirty socks, underwear, shoes, and clothes to put away. No half empty coffee mugs on the desk, or used cereal bowls to rinse and put in the dishwasher. I wasn't constantly searching for something he had misplaced. The grocery bill was half of what it is when he is here. No need to try and calm the boys down before bed after rough-housing with daddy. I went to bed when I felt like it and spread out and enjoyed the whole bed.

But I heard a noise that one night. And I knew I was the one who had to investigate. The boys saw a huge bug, and I had to squash it. The bed was cold when I crawled into it and I didn't have my oven to warm me up. I didn't get my kiss goodnight. Or my, it's-been-a-long-day hug. I didn't get to laugh with him at the boys antics. We didn't get to exchange a wink and a smirk when the boys threw their silly tantrums. I watched our favorite TV shows alone. I was really freaked out watching Fringe by myself.

And then? Then I tried to make the coffee. Yes. I know how to make coffee even though he usually is the one to make it every morning. But this morning? Awful. I'm used to grinding our own beans and I know exactly how much to use, but I had gotten the already ground Dunkin Donuts coffee as a treat for this week. I don't know if it was too much math for me so early in the morning, converting cups to ounces and then dividing by scoops, but ugh, it was horrible. It tasted like sludge. It had tasted so good when he made it. And I missed him. His coffee is always perfect.

And then guess what. It snowed! A few heavy inches of snow. And I had to shovel because I don't know how to use our brand new snowblower, not that it had any gas in it anyway. I was flying around shoveling, taking out the garbage, and brushing off my car so I could get Joey to school on time. And I missed him.

But I can deal with all that. I can handle it. I can kill the bugs, make the coffee, take out the garbage, shovel, and rough house with the boys. That is not the problem. I just miss him. I miss his deep, soothing voice. His warm smile. I miss how easily he can make me laugh. I miss his bear hugs. I miss his laugh. I miss his furrowed brows. I miss his sarcasm and I miss his enthusiasm. I just miss who he is. And I am READY for him to come home. I miss my buddy.


Miss you in the morning
Miss you in the night
You seem as far away
As a satellite
Miss you partly
Miss you completely
Miss you from my headly
Down to my feetly
Sittin' around missin'
And it's a big fat bore
Just missin' and missin'
Til my misser gets sore
-Anonymous

32 comments:

Mel said...

Perfect Kat...just perfect. Garry got home late last night after being gone for just a few days...didn't get to see him until this morning...I know EXACTLY what you're talking about...exactly. Here's to Welcome Homes! ")

Kelly said...

That was so sweet. You should really let him read that....he'll see how much HE is appreciated and missed also!

Did ya start the book?? What do you think??

Fire Hunt said...

It is so good when they come home!

Wendy said...

Awww.. so sweet! I know exactly what you mean.

Hope y'all have a great Thanksgiving!

Jaysi said...

Yea!!! So glad he will be home soon. Hope you survived the week without any major trauma!

Riahli said...

I understand and relate to this completely. I totally realize that I can manage without him when he is gone. I just don't want to. I miss him, all the little things that he does that mean so much. I have three boys, three and under, and when my hubby is gone, even for a short time, it gets so much harder! Sometimes I do start feeling like he doesn't do anything to help out, or at least not enough, but then when he is gone I realize that what he does do really makes a difference. Even if it is just the hugs for me. I think at this time in our lives if my husband was gone for even a few days, I would lose my mind.

Mom24 said...

I hope you have a wonderful reunion. So glad he's coming back safe and sound. Enjoy.

Lisa said...

So true. Isn't it nice sometimes to miss them though - makes you remember all the things you love about them, you know?

Have a lovely Thanksgiving, my friend!

Hilary said...

Sweet and tender. Have a great Thanksgiving. :)

maggie's mind said...

I don't even have to tell you how extremely very much I can relate. Tom makes absolutely the best coffee in the world for me, and I cannot wait to have that again along with a million other things. I love people in love like you guys, and you always make me smile.

MamaGeek @ Works For Us said...

My hubby travels a lot (A LOT) for work. Last week he was in Texas, Tennesse and Ohio and I had the countdown on the ENTIRE TIME. So glad he'll be home soon!

Wishing you a happy Thanksgiving.

Dawn said...

This was such a sweet, loving post. I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving with your husband and family, all together again.

Kelley said...

What a beautiful, sweet post. Wow! I hope you two have a warm reunion, and the boys don't smother him too much with hugs and kisses when he walks in the door.

Happy Thanksgiving!

tweetey30 said...

My hubby doesnt hunt so I dont have to worry about missing him to much except for our schedules are so far apart its like we cross paths and dont get much time together lately..

Tonya said...

I can so relate to that feeling after they have been gone awhile!

Karen said...

Yeah, that's how I feel, too, when the hubby has to work late or do a night job. I usually end up bringing my cherubs into bed with me to be my furnaces *grin*.

imbeingheldhostage said...

How sweet! You made me miss mine and he's in the next room ;-)

Bug-N-Bee said...

I hope you and your honey are having a nice "reunion" tonight. ;)

Momisodes said...

Oh Kat. What an incredibly sweet post. It's so hard when they're gone. Wishing you all a wonderful day together tomorrow for Thanksgiving.

Brittany said...

He should be home now--- so I hope you're enjoying each other! :)

Janah said...

I hope you and your family have a great Thanksgiving!

RiverPoet said...

Happy Thanksgiving! I'm glad your honey will be home soon!

Peace - D

April said...

That was so sweet! Hope he gets home soon!

Bethany said...

I can so relate to both parts of this. A beautiful post.

Robyn said...

I'm still waiting. The thing about shovel snow vs snowblowing is a better level of guilt.

painted maypole said...

so.... he should be home now. yay!

Kelli @ Gohn Crazy said...

Hope you're enjoying your hubby!

Elaine A. said...

Well you know that Tim travels a lot right now for work and during the weeks he gone, by Friday, I can't hug him hard enough when he walks through the door. And! I have to little munchkins to compete with for hugs! ; ) Glad he's comin' home and I bet he missed you too.

Sweet post (an poem).

Elaine A. said...

Sorry for my typos in that earlier comment. MUST go to bed!

Laura said...

It will be nice when he is home. I find it challenging when my hubby is away - but, like you, know that he appreciates me and that makes it a bit easier - though, I would like the flowers too!!! How sweet was that?!??!?!?

Cheers!

Hang in there!

CissaLynn said...

Awwww! What a sweet post, girl!!! Things just aren't the same w/out our "other" half there!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING, girl!!! Thank you for your friendship!!! :))

Roxy Wishum said...

What great, loving thoughts. Will we get an update on the hunting trip?

Words To Live By

Be grateful for each new day.
A new day that you have never lived before.
Twenty-four new, fresh, unexplored hours to use usefully and profitably.
We can squander, neglect, or use them.
Life will be richer or poorer by the way we use today.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could;
some blunders and absurdities crept in;
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be
encumbered with your old nonsense.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson