Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Light Bulb

So this is what happens when I stop running for two months, add bacon to every sandwich I eat (what?), and pig out each night in front of the tv after the kids go to bed.  Interesting.  Or yuck.  Either one.

On a positive note, I finally have some boobs. Unfortunately they won't get a chance to stick around very long because everything from the boobs down is pretty hideous and I've decided enough is enough.  And wouldn't ya know it, the boobs are always the first to go.

It all became crystal clear when my dear husband suggested he and I take a vacation. A reasonable request from the man seeing as how we have not have a vacation in close to 5 years.  Oh sure, we had a night away for a wedding last year, but that wasn't even a 24 hour period of time.  I think a vacation is overdue.

Upon said vacation request I had a request of my own.  Nothing tropical.  This frustrated the hubby seeing as how we live in "frozen tundra" land and we are both sick of freezing cold.  When the hubby says "vacation" then "tropical" is the only thing that comes to his mind.  What is a vacation without warm weather, a beach, and a cold drink in your hand?  Most of the time I would concur with his questioning.

However, because of my poor eating habits, and general slothfulness, these last couple of months I am looking worse for the wear.  The idea of putting on shorts and a tank top, or even worse a swim suit (good gawd!) does not make me think relaxing thoughts. But should that be enough to make me veto a tropical vacation? Absolutely not.

And that was my light bulb moment.

It is about time I rid myself of my recent disgusting unhealthy habits.  I no longer have a sore neck, the muscle in my foot has healed, the busy-ness of the holidays has passed, and our schedules are back on track.  Yes, the weather is still too frigid (and/or icy) for me to run outdoors but I have a perfectly good treadmill downstairs just waiting to be put to use.  I have no more excuses (other than my love of bacon, that is).

Today I bit the bullet and started running again.  And to be honest it felt pretty damn good.  I was surprised how much my body retained (and I'm not talking fat) and that the run was not as difficult as I had feared it would be.

This is my first step.  And I'm glad I'm finally taking it.  It is time to get me back again.  And hopefully by the time our little tropical vacation arrives I will be feeling much more confident with myself and more comfortable in my skin.

Now, if only I could overcome my fear of leaving my children to go on a vacation. You know, typical "what if the plane crashes and Todd and I both die leaving our children parentless."  Or my fear of my children mortally wounding themselves somehow while I'm away.  Or my fear of our mothers having to be hospitalized for exhaustion from watching our kids while we are gone. You know, normal fears.

I've got issues people.  I can only work on one at a time!


Tabor said...

Smiling...I see you as having everything a woman could want...but I realize from your post that we all have our challenges. Tell the grandmas to do some running each day before they get the kids!

Cyndy Newsome said...

Girl, there is nothing DISGUSTING about you! But do what makes you feel better. =)

Verna Lantz said...

You can do it! We are here to keep you accountable.
Go, run, be happy!

Bijoux said...

You go girl! You will be back to bikini (or in my case, tankini) wearing in no time! I'm jealous about the trip! But boy, I still worry those same thoughts about leaving my kids, and they are all young adults now.

Dawn said...

You deserve a vacation, and to feel the healthiest you can! Way to go on getting back at the running. My daughter recently started running with me. It's so much fun to finally have a running buddy.

Charmaine said...

Hey from SA :) good job on getting active again...i am also on a mission to do the same ... enjoy the anticipation leading up to your holiday... it's half the fun ! know just how u must be feeling about leaving the kids... shame :(

Anonymous said...

Hooray for running! It brings so much more than just weight loss and strong muscles. As for those other "issues" I have them every time I leave my children too - not that I don't have a delightful time away - I just can't stop those thoughts from popping in. It's the curse of a mother ;)

Friko said...

All I have to do is give up chocolates. And afternoon cookies. Oh hell, really?

I’m too old for a two piece anyway and didn’t somebody say they’re no longer fashionable?

Clutching at straws here.

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

You Go GIRL!
Write a will, pack your bags and enjoy some quality time with your husband. Your mothering will improve for being away for a little while.

Anonymous said...

Give yourself a hug, go for a run, and leave the kids with grandma for a weekend, we can handle it!

designHER Momma said...

yes I'm loving this! I mean, I don't love that you feel gross, but I love that you're changing. I'm changing too, as you know.

Woot to the treadmill, let's do this!

Cerulean Bill said...

I don't read your blog too often... but having seen the last few post that you've put up, I really don't understand why. You write classy, interesting stuff. Really.

Optimistic Existentialist said...

Just discovered your blog - but from reading the comments it sounds like you deserve a vacation :)

Fawn said...

Kat, I know exactly how you feel! When I don't work out and don't eat right, I can feel it...immediately. So I've made the same decisions as you. One day at a time :).

lime said...

i'm glad you're not vetoing the tropical vacation and that you are doing things to help you feel better about yourself. go enjoy!

Krystyn @ Really, Are You Serious? said...

I want a vacation, too...but it is terrifying!

And, wtg on getting back on the running path. I still haven't added true exercise back in..but I feel like I'm always running around.

imbeingheldhostage said...

I'm inspired! Lightbulb moments are what it takes to get really motivated, aren't they? Good for you- on so many levels. :)

Riahli said...

I'm terrified of taking a vacation with out my kids, and I'd probably have to be carried onto a plane kicking and screaming. :) So you are not alone. The hubs and I have gone away over night a handful of time, but never very far away, otherwise I can't relax and it ruins the whole thing. Oh well, maybe when they are grown I can enjoy a tropical vacation, but by then I wouldn't want to be seen in beach wear. Who am I kidding I don't want to be seen it that now. ;) I hear you about the weight thing, but for me it's every winter... I pack it on and then rush to loose it when the bulbs start poking their heads out of the ground. :) At least in the winter I can wear big baggy clothes, and spring last for every around here, ha ha!

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