Thursday, April 30, 2009

A Reluctant Thankful Thursday

I don't want to write a Thankful Thursday today. Instead I want to bitch and moan and complain and whine.

I could tell you that our "dream" house now has an accepted offer from another buyer and there is really nothing we can do about it. I could tell you that the stinking realtor who is still holding on to our earnest money from our expired offer didn't even bother to tell us that there was another bid on the house. We found out from a friend from church who lives across the cul-de-sac from the "dream" house. Had we known we could have put in another offer to secure our position and the seller (the REALTOR'S CLIENT) could have had the benefit of a bidding war on their house.

Nope. Now instead we are out of a dream house with our house up for sale. And the only reason we put the house up for sale was to buy the "dream" house to begin with. And the timing couldn't be worse with another little bundle on the way in just a few short months. Any other time I think I would just shake it off. But I'm just no good at being in limbo right now.

I could tell you how there are NO OTHER houses in the area that have everything the "dream" house had, and those that come close are twice the listing price.

I could tell you that I am devastated.

I could also tell you it is approximately the 12th day in a row of rain, and that does not help my mood.

And I could tell you that my mom's cancer and open heart surgery is weighing very heavily on me right now too. And that I am also worried about my dad who keeps falling out of his wheel chair and bed at the nursing home. Have I even mentioned that my awesome mother in law is fighting cancer and my wonderful father in law has early Alzheimer's as well? Because, yeah, that is going on too.

I could tell you that I really feel like it isn't just raining right now. It is pouring. POURING.

But I'm going to write a Thankful Thursday post instead. So here it goes:

-I'm Thankful that I have a warm, safe house to keep me and my family cozy and dry.

-I'm Thankful for my hubby's annoyingly optimistic outlook on this situation even though at times it makes me want to punch him in the face.

-I'm REALLY Thankful that right after hubby told me the news last night he followed it up with, "It doesn't really matter to me what house we live in. As long as I'm in a house with you."

-I'm Thankful that baby girl is kicking up a storm today since she hardly moved at all yesterday. It is good to feel those healthy limbs in action.

-I'm Thankful that we have our fabulous folks with us and that we are so close to our families.

-I'm Thankful that we even have the option of looking for a bigger house.

-I'm Thankful that Todd and I are healthy and that we have three healthy boys, and a healthy baby on the way.

-I'm Thankful that I have always preached that "everything happens for a reason" because now I have it perfectly rehearsed to repeat to myself.

-I'm Thankful for being thankful, cause whew!, I feel better now.

Continue to cheer me up folks. Heard any good jokes lately? Have any embarrassing stories you want to share? Or tell me, what are you thankful for?


Mom24 said...

I'm thankful for my family and our home.

I'm thankful for my hubby's job.

I'm thankful we all enjoy good health.

I'm thankful for bloggers out there who can provide support just when I need it.

I'm thankful you could step back and try to get some balance. I'm so, so sorry for everything that's going on. It all could easily be overwhelming.

Kelley said...

Oh, I'm sorry about the house. Really sorry.

I'm thankful for my amazing husband and sweet kids.

I'm thankful that my husband has had the chance to be home for the past 9 months so he could watch our daughter grow up. Not many dads can say that.

I'm thankful that I was able to go running this morning. It felt SOOO good.

I'm thankful for my daughter's sunny smile. It brightens the darkest days.

I'm thankful for my blogging friends.

I'm thankful for the ability to create things. It gives me such satisfaction in my life.

I'm thankful for YOU!

Tammy said...

I know how you feel about RAIN...please go away. Glad you have such a positive husband and he is thankful for his blessings in his life. My post today is a little on the sad side too. Hopefully the sun will come out SOON!

Krystyn said...

I'm sorry it didn't work out, but I was going to add the "everything happens for a reason."

You do have a lot to be thankful for, but I know it's easy to dwell on the other things.

I'm sure you will find a bigger, better and cheaper house!

Kelly said...

You've got me beat. My basement is just "stuff". Sick family is sooo hard, I was just there not too long ago. I will keep your family in my thoughts.

We've had tons of rain too and haven't seen sunshine since last saturday.

4funboys said...

yes... you're blessed! and wise to focus on the blessing... but allow yourself a good whining session every now and again... it helps to appreciate the sweet things in life even more!

the perfect house is still out there for you... and God will lay it in your laps at just the right time!

BeautifulWreck said...

You are blessed! :)

And some whining is okay when you are pregnant.

And a friend told me once after I whined that we had out grown our house "Love grows better in small places." Know that where you are right now, love is growing and your family is reaping the benefits of that.

Jaysi said...

I am really sorry about the house. I feel like I can totally relate because we have been in a somewhat similar situation. I would go into detail, but just know my heart totally gets your heart on this one. I HATE limbo!!! And you are right...the timing stinks. Then again it is all God's timing, and HIS timing is always perfect!

I will pray for you and all of your family. Hang in there!

Emily said...

I don't have any jokes to help cheer you up...but I will be praying for you. And in the meantime, just enjoy those sweet baby kicks...there's nothing like that feeling!

Midwest Mom said...

I think those baby kicks are your little girl reminding you to refocus. When I was pregnant with mine, my 7yo nephew who had been ill since birth took a number of bad turns. I was on the phone with my sister every other day as she lived in the hospital watching her son get weaker. And she always said to me, "keep those endorphins swimming for your baby! Think happy thoughts, eat chocolate, smile and laugh -- your baby needs it!" I was so grateful for her, that she thought about my baby while she was in the process of losing her own.

I guess my point is that I came to understand that my daughter and my family could be sources of strength and joy, even when the worst things were happening around us. My feeling is that you are learning the same thing.

I wish you every ounce of peace there is.

So Keep those endorphins swimming, Kat! Smile, laugh, and go eat some chocolate. ;D

- Julia at Midwest Moms

Hilary said...

You're absolutely right about everything happening for a reason. Take your strength from that and from that wonderful husband of yours. You will get through it. Truly. Hugs to you from across the bloggy miles.

OHmommy said...

I am so sorry for all the illnesses Kat. I will pray for your family.

As for the "dream" house. We had a very similar situation where we weren't notified that someone outbid us on our original "dream house" I was devastated. And then, one week later *this* house came up on the market. BY FAR... much more of a dream house.

Everything really happens for a reason. I keep telling myself that. It does help sometimes. HUGS!!!

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

Oh that 's a bitter pill to swallow. I'm so sorry. I admire you for ending your post on a thankful note, though.

What do you call a man with no arms and no legs hanging on the wall?

Elaine A. said...

I'm going to be REALLY cliche here and say that where one window closes another one opens. Right? Right. Let's keep that attitude. I'm sorry you didn't get your "dream house" and I can feel your disappointment in your words. I'll pray that another house will be found that will be just as perfect.

I loved reading your thankful list and it's so good of you to still post it so you can see that even though you are upset now, life is still pretty good! ; ) Hugs Kat!

Cassie said...

I'm thankful that Jackson is FINALLY taking a nap (his first one in three days!ugh!). I'm sorry about the house!

Laura said...

so much going on...hang in there...keep positive - things will work out.


Lisa (Jonny's Mommy) said...

I'm sorry everything is so crappy today. Wish I had a funny joke to don't. IF I think of one I'll come back though. I can tell you I am grateful for my son's amazing smile, my husband's cute butt, and the fact I'm going to an Arts festival this weekend.

That part about your husband saying he didn't care what house he had as long as you were in it...that is sweet!

Maggie's Mind said...

So much going on, Kat! Makes sense to get fed up with it once in awhile. I love that you also know how to come through the other side. You and your man and your babies all together - yep, that's the good stuff. For the rest, I'm crossing my fingers for you.

Riahli said...

When we were working on buying our first house there was one for sale two doors down and it was perfect. I felt it was the one for us and was sure it would all work out, I thought it was the answer to my prayers. I had been praying hard for months about finding a home for sale close by and when that one went on the market I was sure it was meant to be... But it didn't work out, and I remember so clearly taking a walk alone the night I found out and wandering around outside of the house that I had already been think of as mine and bawling my eyes out and asking God why? Why? It just seemed so perfect and I had been so sure. Months and months and months later, three different realtors later, lots of stress and frustration, and we ended up moving A Lot farther away then I ever imagined. But you know what? It's the perfect house, way better then the one I thought we needed, and it cost much less, and I like the area we are living in now. The moved worked, my business started over again, which is what I was the most stressed out about. I had to take a big leap in faith and realize that God's plan and my plan were different. I'll go with God's plan any day. :)

imbeingheldhostage said...

I am really sorry about the house-- really, really sorry (and still praying for your mom) but I won't dwell on that. Instead, I'll cheer you up.
You know that little girl you're having? One day, she will come to you wearing plastic pearls and a cheeky grin all eager to help you clean. You will say to her, "Go put your baby and handbag into the toy basket" and as she walks out looking dazed trying to remember where she moved the basket to, her Grandma might try to remind her that she put it in the bathroom. Only you don't call those places bathrooms in England, you call them toilets.

So she did.

That baby girl will put her doll and purse in the toilet. Then she will take them out and place them on the carpet because she thinks it is a strange request. But the original eagerness to help will return and she will put the doll and purse back into the toilet where you will find it later after stepping into the wet bathroom carpet.

Aren't you excited now?
Too bad you're not having twin girls :-)

Tracey - Just Another Mommy Blog said...

In a couple of months, when you're holding your daughter, you won't care what house you're doing it in.

Sorry you have so much on your plate, though. Sending you love...

Beck said...

Oh, I'm sorry, sweetie.
My sister-in-law is feeling better!

Indy said...

We've had a tough year too. So, although I don't know exactly how you are feeling, I just wanted to say that I know how dark it can feel. It has to stop raining soon, right? Wishing you a big rainbow full of good things that have to start going your way.

Dani said...

So sorry to hear about the house situation. But you do have much to be thankful for!!! And much to look forward to with you new bundle on the way! Best of luck!!!

Fire Hunt said...

One year ago we were looking for a home and the one that I know was for us sold but I love the home that we are now in!

Lisa said...

Oh Kathryn - that stinks!!! So sorry to hear that.
Good things to be thankful for though!!!

ewe are here said...

I'm really sorry about the dream house...and the other serious issues your extended family is facing. But I also have to say, I REALLY admire your attitude. It's very inspiring.

DysFUNctional Mom said...

Good for you for being able to post a Thankful post in the midst of all you are going through.
You have a lot on your plate and I think you handle it all very well.
I'm really sorry about the house, and everything else that's worrying you right now.

Roxy Wishum said...

I am thankful that I ran across your blog long ago. We are from different worlds and very different people, but I feel like I know you because you write so well about what you are feeling. And you feel so well. I feel guilty now for not writing about all that has happened in my life. You have much more on your plate but take the time to process and express. Thank you.

Words To Live By

Be grateful for each new day.
A new day that you have never lived before.
Twenty-four new, fresh, unexplored hours to use usefully and profitably.
We can squander, neglect, or use them.
Life will be richer or poorer by the way we use today.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could;
some blunders and absurdities crept in;
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be
encumbered with your old nonsense.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson