Monday, May 6, 2013


I haven't been feeling myself lately.  The last few weeks have taken a toll on me.  I am in a funk.  Just feeling down in the dumps and I can't seem to shake myself out of it.

This past weekend should have helped.  It was a nice weekend.  Sunny and warm. Gracie and I had the place to ourselves with the menfolk up at the cabin.  We had a lovely ladies weekend with trips to the library, a greenhouse, the pet store, lots of treats, and lots of time outside.  It was so nice just me and my girl.

I even bought myself a bottle of wine and stayed up way too late both Friday and Saturday night watching home movies and our wedding video.

All in all, it was the kind of weekend I love and it should have cheered me right up and gotten me back to my old self again.  But, Monday rolls around and I'm still feeling that now familiar feeling.  Just down.

I know I'll get out of this.  This funk won't stay forever.  But it is really starting to get annoying.  Spring is here.  The flowers are coming up.   The grass is getting green.  Temperatures are rising.  Days are getting longer.  School will soon be out. There is much to be celebrated.  But I just can't seem to make myself celebrate right now.  I'm just not feeling it.

Hopefully I'll get into the swing of things again soon.


Tabor said...

Make sure you have had a check-up recently with your doctor. Also be sure you are eating the best that you can. If both these are not negative, then it should pass. Just don't ignore it forever, because you are doing the things you should do to cheer yourself up.

Bijoux said...

I agree with Tabor, get a blood test just to make sure your hormone levels are normal.

Honestly though, I think it's understandable with what you and your husband have been going through the past month. Add four young ones to the mix and it spells exhaustion. I hope your mojo returns soon. Hugs to you, my friend.

Kat said...

Tabor- I just had my thyroid checked a little while ago. I have NOT been eating well. As a matter of fact I just packed on 5 pounds or so. Apparently I like to eat my doldrums away. ;)
I honestly think it is just coming off of Todd's dad's funeral. It hit us hard. And then of course it bring my dad's stuff right back too. Then the weather was rainy and cold and dreary for a good two weeks. That didn't help. And the kids had a lot of stuff going on at school.
It has just been kinda nuts. I kinda just want to stay in bed every morning. ;)

BUT, this is no big deal in the grand scheme of things. There is nothing really WRONG. I'm just feeling blah.

I guess this post is mostly my way of telling you all why I haven't been around much. I just don't feel like I have much to say right now. I'll get around to your blogs soon. Just give me a bit to shake the icks I've got. :)

Mom24 said...

Aww Kat. Be good to yourself. This IS a rough time, there's no getting around it, and I'd be impatient for things to improve too, but you can't force it. You'll feel better when you feel better. (((hugs)))

Cyndy Newsome said...

I am right there with you. Fortunately I have a friend who reminds me, you have been through a LOT and even good things can be stressful and wear you out. Give yourself a break!
You have been through a lot too and it's understandable to be down. I understand how frustrating it is too, though, believe me, when you WANT to be "up" and feel like you should be.
I echo the others - make sure you're taking care of yourself.

Wisconsin Girl said...

Give yourself time to process all of the life changes that you've been through recently. Hang in there...its tough to feel down when the weather starts getting nicer...but allow yourself to work through it. And take all of the hugs you can get from your kids and hubby:) Those always seem to help!

Charmaine said...

Hi :) feel better...thinking of you.

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

Oh, Kat. I think it's grand of you to still try to see the sunny side of things even when you're in a funk. That's the worst feeling to KNOW you needn't be miserable, but you just cannot help it. Hugs, honey.

lime said...

be gentle with yourself. your family has just been through a lot. i'm glad you're being good to yourself and getting out into the lovely weather though.

Peruby said...

You are probably just like the rest of us. We expect too much of ourselves. We are always thinking I should do more, more, more! We are all too hard on ourselves. Pushing ourselves. This is your body/mind's way of saying "I need a break! I need to re-charge!"

Plus - Home movies would make me sad because it actually makes me realize the passing of time. And how precious time is.

Unless your home movies are like mine and you laugh your a$$ off the entire time.

:) Cheers! Watch funny videos.

Dawn said...

Hugs to you, Kat. My heart is with you and I wish you all the best. What you're feeling seems normal, after all that you've been through. You're right though, it won't last. You won't stay down.

Elaine Alguire said...

Aw, I giggled at your "swing of things" comment since Grace is swinging. ;) I'm sorry you're down, I hope you cheer up soon.


Krystyn @ Really, Are You Serious? said...

Totally get it. I think (for me) it's the same-ness of ever week. Nothing special stands out, every week is the same. Hopefully, this summer will keep us on our toes and a little less funky!

Words To Live By

Be grateful for each new day.
A new day that you have never lived before.
Twenty-four new, fresh, unexplored hours to use usefully and profitably.
We can squander, neglect, or use them.
Life will be richer or poorer by the way we use today.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could;
some blunders and absurdities crept in;
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be
encumbered with your old nonsense.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson