Sunday, March 23, 2014

Freak Out Time

We are back from our fun filled mini vacation in Wisconsin Dells. 

It was wet, wild, and super fun. And very exhausting. 

Here you see the kids raring to go the minute we got to the hotel. Five hours later we were all jammed into the pull out bed in the living room trying to summon the energy to go out to dinner. Eventually, with Todd's pleading, we did indeed make it out for dinner. 
We accidentally walked into a very fancy restaurant and then the hostess insisted we stay. The kids were weirded out by the fanciness of it all. The live singing/piano playing, the water features, the three different forks and knives, the warm towelette after dinner, the prices. It completely freaked them out. It was kind of funny. But the food was delicious and the kids were fairly well behaved.

When we got back to the hotel room we all crashed. Then it was up bright and early again the next morning for more waterpark fun. Another water filled fun day and a delicious dinner (and Culver's custard too!) and we were extra exhausted when we got back to our room.
Somehow we managed to drag ourselves out of bed in time to clean up and get to church this morning. Now we are back home. Time to unpack all the bags, clean the house, repack our bags, leave instructions for the grandmas, plan little goodbye gifts for the kiddos, and organize dinners and activities for the kids while we are gone.

In other words, it's freak out time.

I'm not good with leaving my kids. Never have been. I suspect I never will be. It really hasn't gotten easier. Good thing we hardly ever do it. And this will most likely be our last vacation without the kids for a long time so we had to jump at the chance. Still, I can't help the internal freak out.

On the long ride home from WI Dells today Todd turned to me and said, "By this time tomorrow we will be relaxing on the beach!"  I replied in a whisper, "If we're not dead." I was only half teasing.

Morbid, I know. But I can't help it. I'm paranoid something is going to happen to us (plane crash) leaving our kids parentless. I'm also paranoid something will happen to my kids and I won't be there.
In short, I'm paranoid. Freaking out. 

I'm sure everything will be just fine. I am really trying my best to ignore the nagging little voices in my head. I'm sure it will be a lovely trip. 

For now I'm freaking out. 


Bijoux said...

Fabulous hotel! My kids would have loved it!

It IS sooo hard to go on trips without the kids, but good to have couple time. Think of me still stuck in the snow (yup, today AGAIN) while you are on the beach. Have a frozen margarita for me!

April said...

TWO vacations?!? Girl, I'm jealous!! Oh who am I kidding, I'd be happy to go for a solitary trip to the craft store. HA! We are going camping Memorial Day weekend and I can't WAIT. And about the trips w/out kids? I TOTALLY get your paranoia...ummm...I've never stayed away from my kids (except for when I was in the hospital having Avery, it KILLED ME being away from hunter those nights). It's not that I don't WANT to go somewhere, just me and my Big D, but I'm SCARED. Like you, I'm so worried about the "what ifs"! I feel morbid. LOL So I'm glad I'm not alone! ;-)

betty said...

I don't like to fly but found myself flying a few years ago to go see my mom; absolutely was terrified to go on the plane, but knew I wanted to see my mom. I would literally wake up weeks before we were scheduled to do and say "I'm going to be on a plane in a few weeks, I just can't do this." But of course I did and of course the plane didn't crash. I remember that morning praying to God and asking him to keep us safe and reading the Bible and reading this from Psalm 36 (verse 5): Your love, Lord, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies.

After I read that, I knew he'd be with us when we were on that plane and everything would be okay.

So just go out and enjoy a good time with Todd! I too had trouble leaving my kids, but it really is good for you/Todd to be away like this and the kids too, as hard as it is to leave them.

Your trip to the Dels sounded like it was fun too; any time kids are around water, they do seem to be tired and sleep really good!

Enjoy your trip to Mexico!


Kat said...

Betty- The crazy thing is that I used to LOVE to fly before I had kids. I was so adventurous and a daredevil. Now every risky move seems far too risky. I've become a wimp.
My kids are spoiled. I think Todd and I have been on 4 trips since Joey was born 11 years ago. They are just so used to being with us. And I like being the one to take care of them. This just weirds me out. But I'm sure it will all be fine. :)

Hilary said...

I see that your kids come by their freak outs naturally. ;)

You will be fine. They will be fine. All will be fine. (Make this your freak out mantra) Have a great time.

I've been to the Dells.. in summer about 15 years ago.

Angie said...

Oh goodness, two vacations! I'm totally jealous, I'd just like to have one!!!

Enjoy friend! Just breathe..Everything will be just fine :)

Wisconsin Girl said...

Looks like it was a great time in the Dells! Fun family time:) Now go have a GREAT time with your hubby! I totally get the freak out thing...I'm right there with you. But enjoy that warm weather! We sure don't have any here...and bring it back with you!

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Be grateful for each new day.
A new day that you have never lived before.
Twenty-four new, fresh, unexplored hours to use usefully and profitably.
We can squander, neglect, or use them.
Life will be richer or poorer by the way we use today.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could;
some blunders and absurdities crept in;
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be
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