Thursday, September 22, 2011

Slowly, But Surely

Sometimes as an adult you forget who you really are.  Sometimes children, and life, and responsibilities take over so much that you forget what you were really all about to begin with.

Tonight the hubby and I went to see a comedian that was passing through our city.  We have been big fans of Brian Reagan for a number of years now so when we saw that he was making a stop in our little town we immediately booked our tickets and secured our spot for tonight's show. 

It was just what we needed.

Right before we were to leave the hubby and I started arguing.  Something about how I hate always having to be the heavy and he hates always having to take care of work (even when he is at home), and we were both pissed.  I didnt' feel like going out.  He didn't feel like spending any time with me.  But, somehow, we prepped our kids and we left the house for our night out.

First we went to a little restaurant we had never been to before.  We ate English food (fish and chips) and had a few drinks.  The hubby kept on his phone for work, I nearly chucked it out the window, and then finally we were enjoying ourselves.  Just the two of us.  It turned out to be a great dinner.

After a few drinks and a wonderful dinner, we were at the theater, ready for some good ole comic relief. 

Thank God we made it.  I was laughing so hard I seriously had to get up and pee three separate times so I didn't have an accident.  The opening act was so funny and Brian Reagan was a freaking blast.  I felt human again.  I remembered what my old life used to be like.  I remembered what I used to be like.  I felt like me again. 

Slowly but surely, I felt myself coming back again.  Not that I don't love being a mom and a wife, and a homemaker, but something about all of that makes us forget who we were before.   I guess I forgot that I used to be wild.  And FUN.  And I have a great sense of humor.  I don't get to use it a whole lot when I'm barking out orders to "do homework" and "pick up toys" and "eat your dinner", but I'm still there.  That fun-loving girl that really likes to have a good time.  I'm still there.

A couple of times tonight, in between fits of laughter, I turned to Todd and said, "I feel human again.  I feel like me."  I forgot how important that was. 

Yep.  Tonight was just what we needed. 

Yes, I may always miss having a baby, or being pregnant, but there is definitely something special about getting back to me again.  And I may just be ready.


Hilary said...

I'm glad you had a good time.. those outings are important. And you won't always miss the babies and pregnancy and nursing. You will fleetingly but eventually, you'll be thinking "I'm so glad it's her an not me!" ;)

Kelli @ writing the waves said...

Glad you had such a blast! I know what you do kind of forget what you used to be like before mommy brain took over. :)

And the cell phone out the window thing - I can totally relate! I swear, his phone is like an extra appendage. Seriously.

Elaine A. said...

I'm so glad you had a good time. And I just love those last words of yours.

And I'll have to come back and watch that video because I could use some good old fashioned laughter myself. But right now, I MUST go to bed!

Jeni said...

Oh my Girl! I do so very much know exactly what you mean about losing the person you once were! Years of trying to run a household, feed, clothe AND discipline three sometimes really wild children by myself, plus working two jobs along the way and all that stuff does take its toll on us -on our personality, for sure! Every now and again, I get a chance -rare, but now and then one comes along -where I can enjoy being out and about, with good, old friends and be able to let my sense of humor come forward again. God, it's a great feeling though when those occasions come to pass, isn't it though?

Mel said...

Amen you sweet girl...a-freakin-men. ")

Lora said...

This is the second blog post I've read this morning about getting out for a date night. Maybe it's a sign that we should do it too! Glad you had fun and were able to remember your "old" self :)

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

Sounds like you tapped into your OTHER self just in the nick of time! I'm glad it turned out to be a good night out with your man.

Jayne said...

this post brought a tear to my eye, as I feel the same way you do/did. I have a feeling I'm "losing myself" in my job, kids, house, etc....I think a date night may have to be our future too. I'm glad you were able to get out and have a few good belly laughs!

Rima said...

I love going to comedy clubs! And dates. And anything that's different from the usual day to day. I always hem and haw and threaten to just stay home, but it always ends up being so good for me! We definitely need it.

So glad you guys ended up having a good night out! said...

hey there. glad you got out.. i havent been around for a while because i havent been able to get into your blog from mine.. to visit. it was weird.. oh well maybe blogger fixed itself..

Mom24 said...

Jealous!!! It's so easy to "lose" yourself, not only in your children, but in work, responsibility, the day-to-day nitty gritty. I'm glad you enjoyed this evening out and I hope it sustains you for a long time. Actually, I hope you get to do it again soon so it doesn't have to. :)

I have never been to a comedy club. I'm going to have to check that out.

DysFUNctional Mom said...

I'm so glad you got to go, and get back in touch with that fun side of yourself. It sounds wonderful!

Riahli said...

Oh do I feel you on this one! We seem to be around the same place in our lives right now... :) Glad you all got to go out together and have such a wonderful time, I love stand up, well good stand up any ways and he is super funny! We love him too. :)

Brittany said...

Loved that! HOW funny!

I'm so glad you had a good time! Sometimes I get stressed out with work, and being a mom.. and just life.. and thats when i'm like "pick a day, i dont care when, but I need a date night!" and Tony will plan something for us.. even if its just popcorn, a movie and wine.. (kidless!) Its just what I need to relax! I think it should be mandatory for moms :)

Brittany said...

That sounds like fun! Sometimes that kind of thing is just what we need, as couples, to keep each other sane! :)

lime said...

he just came through our area too and i got tickets for my husband and son for the boy's birthday. i wanted them to do somethign fun and laugh together because they've been carping so much lately.

glad you had a great night out and felt more like yourself. laughter is good medicine.

April said...

This is EXACTLY how I I misplaced ME somewhere and I desperately need to get it back. Great post!

Words To Live By

Be grateful for each new day.
A new day that you have never lived before.
Twenty-four new, fresh, unexplored hours to use usefully and profitably.
We can squander, neglect, or use them.
Life will be richer or poorer by the way we use today.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could;
some blunders and absurdities crept in;
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be
encumbered with your old nonsense.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson