Thursday, January 13, 2011

Struggling

I've been having a hard time.  Hence the absense from blogging.  I figured if I didn't have anything nice to say, than I'd better not say anything at all.  I still don't have anything good to say but I'm here none the less.

January has always been a difficult month for me.  It is so cold.  And long.  And boring.  And nothing good or exciting or fun ever happens in January.  It depresses me every year.  This year is no exception.  I can feel myself fighting the depression.  I'm just not doing a very good job putting up a fight.  It's so sad that January is so awful because it is the first month of a new year.  It is supposed to be about hope and starting fresh and this is the time it should be easy to be at your best.  But I'm not.  Ugh.

Everything is bothering me.  My patience is at an all time low.  I'm thinking of selling my children on Ebay and using the money to go on a vacation somewhere warm.  Okay, maybe not.  But it would be nice to run away for a little while at least.

There is a picture on my sidebar that is to serve as a reminder to me.  It says, "Before you speak ask; is it true, kind, necessary".  I've been trying to follow those rules lately.  It sounds simple enough.  But man, I'm just not making the mark.  I am struggling.  But I'm trying.

*sigh*

January.

Are you done yet?

22 comments:

Mom24 said...

{{{Hugs}}} I completely understand. I hope it passes soon. Be good to yourself, you're doing the best you can.

My Life With Boys said...

I know exactly how you feel! I get slightly depressed every winter! Hope your days seem brighter soon...take care!

Cheri @ Blog This Mom!® said...

Totally understands.

I think maybe January and the promise of a new beginning is like hearing about a great movie. My expectations get high and then about a week into it, guess what? Things are still the same, except not, because things do change, and that's not always wanted. So it feels all blah sometimes.

But February and feeling better and good days are ahead, and also all around us just as soon as we've rested up and are ready to look. January is a good month to rest, to give ourselves permission to rest.

Hang in there.

XO

Debbie in CA : ) said...

Hello dear fellow struggler! I have always loved January . . . until this year. *sigh*

I hold you in my prayers, sweet friend. And I trust you will do the same for me. ; )

XO ~~ Debbie

tweetey30 said...

About two more weeks of January.. I have to admit the only two things that make January nice for me is that I get koras b-day and she turned 10 today and my b-day the end of the month.. go january b-days..

Rima said...

THIS IS EXACTLY THE WAY I HAVE BEEN FEELING! So I totally hear ya, girl. I spent an entire day last week trying to figure out some way our family could take a tropical vacation or at least go to Florida for a week. Not gonna happen. Anyway, February is just around the corner, and at least it only has 28 days!

myfallingleaves said...

Aw hugs to you. Hope the rest of January goes better (and quicker) for you. Hang in there, its almost over.

KriskropMemories said...

I just happened upon your blog and I have to say it is wonderful!!

I am sorry you are having a tough month and hope this passes for you soon!

Elaine A. said...

Oh hon, I wish I could give you a big hug right now. We've even been stuck inside lately and it's getting to me too. We all need our outdoor time. Good thing January WILL come to an end. Thinking of you... xo

Dawn said...

Hugs to you. I've been struggling a bit too lately. Running away is certainly something that has crossed my mind a time or two this month. Hang in there!

Jeni said...

Sounds to me like you have a touch of SAD -Seasonal Affective Disorder. If possible, try to stick your head outside if even for a tiny bit of air/sunshine. Yeah, I know -what is sunshine, Huh? I used to threaten my kids that I was going to sell them to the first band of gypsies that came through town but I used that line year-round, not just in January! However, if it helps to know you had me smiling -even giggling a little bit -over your feelings about putting your kids up for sale on E-Bay -just know that made me laugh! Hang in there. Days are getting longer -hence a tad more sunshine even if it is colder than all get out at the same time. And, remember too, this too will pass -and it will. Just a pain in the behind waiting for it to leave though. Peace!

Tabor said...

I have also felt this way many Januarys. I think it has to do with lack of sun on skin and eyes...really. If you can find time to sit in the sun at least once a day for at least 10 minutes, that may help. Other than that, know that you are in huge company on this.

Emily said...

I feel your pain. We're on snow day #5 here. In the deep south where snow is usually just something we hear about on the news. I like your rule...but if I followed it I might never talk! ;)

Riahli said...

Same, same, same, same, SAME!!! I hate January, the cold dark days with nothing to look forward to, bleck. I think between the two of us and our eight adorable children we could get enough on ebay to go on an awesome warm vacation. ;) Course when we got back we would be awfully lonely...guess we need a plan B. Ha ha!

Scrappy said...

I'm sorry. I have a hard time in January too. This year I have been trying to keep myself busy planning Buttercups birthday. It is going to be too elaborate, but it has been so nice to focus on something this month.
I think those suggesting time in the sun are on to something. I might have to try that.
I hope you are feeling more like your chipper, optimistic self soon.
*hugs*

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

Winters--being cooped up with short days and no sunlight and wet boots and the hassle of bundling up--complicated by small children--I hope you do something special for yourself soon, Kat. I'll pray for ya!

Tonya said...

Yeah I get the cold! My oldest daughter's birthday is in Jan so every year we have something to look forward too. Feb is the drab month for me!! Even with Valentines thrown in there.

Dysfunctional Mom said...

I hope the rest of January flies by....and maybe we'll even get an early spring? After this winter we deserve it.
xoxo

painted maypole said...

I hear you. i have had 6 months of januarys.

Hattie said...

So sorry to hear you've been feeling low. Hope things start to look up!!! {{HUGS}}

MamaB said...

Seriously!!! and Amen sister to all of that! January has always been a hard month of me too, I'm just not a bitter cold, dreary day blah kind of person! Hang in there! Soon it will be Valentine's Day and maybe an unseasonable warm front will come through??

Tracey - Just Another Mommy Blog said...

January is rough for me too. It's almost over. It's almost over...

Words To Live By

Be grateful for each new day.
A new day that you have never lived before.
Twenty-four new, fresh, unexplored hours to use usefully and profitably.
We can squander, neglect, or use them.
Life will be richer or poorer by the way we use today.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could;
some blunders and absurdities crept in;
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be
encumbered with your old nonsense.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson