Wednesday, February 25, 2009

And Then My Heart Exploded

Just yesterday you turned six. And I was perfectly fine with it. I did great all day long. Not one tear shed. I was just excited to see how much you loved your gifts and to watch you enjoy your day.

Then, when I saw you sitting with your class in church today you looked so big. You lined up to receive your ashes, hands folded, and completely focused on the task at hand. I was the one waving wildly. Acting inappropriately to try and get your attention. You were so mature. So solemn. And when you finally saw me you smiled that heart-stopping smile and nodded your head at me. My boy. My big boy.

I felt my heart explode against my chest. Tears immediately filled my eyes and I just couldn't stop them from flowing. Watching you grow, finding new aspects of your personality, discovering your likes and dislikes with you. It is all magic to me. And I can't believe how grown you are already.

Love and pride filled my entire body as I watched you walk back to your seat, turn around, and give me that smile again. I melted into a pool of goo. What on earth did I do to deserve such a boy?

31 comments:

imbeingheldhostage said...

awww dang it, you just made mine cry too... we have birthday nine coming up soon :-(

Krystyn said...

Awwww....you are you..that's all you had to do to deserve it. God picked you to be his mom, and picked him to be your son!

Brittany said...

AW! :) I would have been sobbing too! We are so blessed that God chooses our little ones for us! Such a gift! :)

Domestic Goddess (In Training) said...

That is soooo sweet. My oldest boy is two... I can't believe how fast they grow. He'll be six some day, too. *Choking back sobs*

Scrappy said...

Stop it! I am already crying about Ned turning 8 and that is not until May! :)

Very sweet post. You are an awesome mommy with awesome kids!

Mel said...

Awwwww! Hope just turned 6 last Friday...and lost her first tooth today. I know those feelings SOOOOO well! ")

Laura said...

Tissue please....much needed......

Cheri @ Blog This Mom! said...

I love watching them in church. So sweet and innocent, following traditions, peaking through folded hands during the Lord's Prayer.

Happy Birthday Joseph! Six is so BIG!

Elaine A. said...

Aw, you deserve it because you are such a good Mommy. Love that this came straight from your heart. Happy Birthday to your sweet Joey!

Tammy said...

That is so darn sweet. They grow awfully quick. I tell my youngest please don't grow up. She just turned 7....Happy Birthday to your Big 6 year old.

Dawn said...

I don't think there's anything we can do to deserve the precious gifts that our children are...they're a gift of grace, pure and simple. :) That was a very sweet post.

Jaysi said...

Ahhhh...now I feel like a pool of goo!!! :)

Allison said...

How sweet! Happy Birthday to him!

CC said...

Stop it! My little boy will be 6 in a few months! :(

Momisodes said...

I'm all misty eyed just reading this. He is such a sweet boy. I would have melted into a pile of goo as well.
Hope he had a wonderful birthday!

Anonymous said...

Now We are Six

When I was One,
I had just begun.
When I was Two,
I was nearly new.
When I was Three
I was hardly me.
When I was Four,
I was not much more.
When I was Five, I was just alive.
But now I am Six, I'm as clever as clever,
So I think I'll be six now for ever and ever.

A.A. Milne

*I know the feeling of loving him so much it hurts*

Mom24 said...

I'm very glad for you that you did get a boy like that, and that you have the smarts to know it. You're both very lucky.

Rachel said...

Oh Kat, *sigh*

Shush, now.

historygirlie said...

Oh, goodness...what a beautiful tribute to your little boy.

Your birthday tributes always make me teary.

Haley-O said...

Aww! This made me melt.... Happy birthday to your SWEET little one! :) xo

Karen MEG said...

Well, he's the way he is because he's been raised by a terrific mama. What a sweet thing... and happy birthday to your big boy!

Tonya said...

I think each year has gotten harder for me to see them grow. It is all good but soon they will be gone. I love that he just smiled. How cute!

Chris said...

You described beautifully the way I feel at least a dozen times a day.

What a terrific mother you are!

raino said...

its so difficult to see our kids grow up yet nice to see as well.

http://momofboxer.blogspot.com/2009/02/open-letter-dear-school-council.html

Jill said...

What a sweet post. ONe day when he gets older he will read this and get a reminder of just how much his mom loves him.

So sweet.. it got me all teary!

lime said...

amazing the moments that sneak up on us and take our breath way

Lisa said...

sweet mama sap, Kathryn! I've been teary this whole week about Julia getting so doggone big....this whole parenting thing & being pregnant w/ all the hormones.....lovely and overwhelming all at the same time!

Kristen said...

That was awesome! I too sometime sit and wonder in awe how can it be? I'll take all the trying moments in the world for those few seconds of awe!

Happy Birthday to you big kid!!

Rima said...

He sounds like such a sweet, sweet boy!

And P.S. He gets it from you!!!

Maryeliz said...

Aww, what a sweetie. Happy birthday!

painted maypole said...

love this. i love those moments where it just washes over you

Words To Live By

Be grateful for each new day.
A new day that you have never lived before.
Twenty-four new, fresh, unexplored hours to use usefully and profitably.
We can squander, neglect, or use them.
Life will be richer or poorer by the way we use today.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could;
some blunders and absurdities crept in;
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be
encumbered with your old nonsense.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson