Monday, March 18, 2013

On Paper

On paper this weekend looked great.  In reality it was a mess.  Mostly, thanks to me.

I have been a grouchy, cantankerous mess.  I exploded too many times to count.  I put myself in solitary confinement for most of the weekend and that still didn't help much.

Luckily, the little people seem to have had some fun anyway.  The boys participated in their Boy Scout box car race.  All three of them were very good sports and I am told they were best behaved boys there.  Well done, boys!

Grace was invited to her first ever birthday party.  I thought she would be thrilled but she refused to go unless I promised to stay there.  Somehow, I managed to put my nasty, foul mood on hold long enough not to spoil the party.
So there you have it.  Looks like a great weekend, right?  Yeah.  Well.  Looks are deceiving.  I feel badly for my family having to put up with me.

It's funny because I really don't have anything to be upset about.

There are only so many times I can blame my foul mood on this horrible weather (it is snowing again right now as I type).

I really can't blame my craziness on the colds that have been ruminating around our household the last week or two because this is the first time we've been hit with any kind of sickness in a long time.  We've avoided so much of the horrible sickies this winter and this cold (while annoying and sleep depriving) really isn't that bad (unless you ask Todd who is apparently the only one who got REALLY sick ;) ).

I can not keep blaming my tantrums on my air-headed children that forget everything from their boots, lunch bags, JACKETS, and very important homework projects at school.

I can't even blame my bitchiness on my PMS which has seemed to refuse to turn into MS making me late, late, late.  Seriously.  Late.  I have never been this late unless a child was then born 9 months later.    Alas, there is no child in my near future and I am still so late.  Ugh.  I'm sure it will finally arrive when I am on vacation with the kids at a WATERPARK this coming weekend.  Or maybe even when the hubby and I are on our first vacation in 5 years in JAMAICA next week.  Whatevs. (tmi, i know.  sorry)

See?  See what I'm doing?  I'm being bitchy.  I'm going on vacation in a week and I still have the nerve to bitch and complain.  I should seek help.  Seriously.

I feel like I could eat myself into a coma.  Or have some serious cocktails to take the edge off.  But, being the genius that I am, I gave up all sweets and alcohol for Lent. Man. I am a glutton for punishment.

Whatever happens I better buck up because we have a lot of fun stuff coming up. Tommy's birthday is on Thursday, then we are leaving for a few days to take the kids to Wisconsin Dells, and then after that Todd and I are outta here for four days. Nothing but sand and sun (and hopefully safe travels and no plane crashes whatsoever, or broken children to come home to-ugh-I gotta stop it!).  


April said...

You sound like me! LOL Although I do feel like I've had reasons to be addition to PMS. ;-) And Grace and Avery have the same coat!! :-)

Annmarie Pipa said...

Unfortunately I completely understand and relate...every year in March my husband and I would go away for the weekend.not really away, like 5 miles from home. but is was without kids. the kids stayed at friends houses or with relatives. it was a huge production to turf the kids off for about 40 hours of us with no kids..but it worked. Now when we need a break we pay our older kids to watch the younger ones. i tried the weekend away with my girlfriends but that didn't work as well because the house was NEVER as clean when I came home as when I left. good luck..hang in there...spring is coming!!

Riahli said...

Sorry, I know the feeling all too well. :/ And yes, if you have anything fun planned, you will get your period. ;) At least I swear that's what happens to me, like every single time, it would be a joke around here, if it was funny.

Mom24 said...

I would definitely be bitchy at the prospect of my period and a waterpark or Jamaica. Definitely.

I completely empathize with the witchy moods. Most of the time I have no idea why and I can't seem to shut them down until they run their course. Maybe it helps to know you're not alone.

Hope you have a fabulous time this weekend and next week.


Mom24 said...

Wait!!! Two vacations and no alcohol or sweets??? Ugh!

Kat said...

Mom24- We had an idea we might be going to Jamaica before Lent started so when I vowed not to have alcohol or sweets I put a little "except in Jamaica" clause in there. ;) Hey, I'm not perfect. hehe

Bijoux said...

The whole period thing when going on a trip thing always stresses me out! And the persistent snow gets all of us down.

Charmaine said...

Hey from SA :) sorry u not feeling your best Kat... i know the feeling...i blame those 'darling' little hormones we girls suffer with...the constant ups and down of ones cycle are really just TOO MUCH and it gets worse the older one gets i've noticed :p I think you can be forgiven as you are 'late' so your hormones are NOT playing nice [as if they ever could hey] maybe you just need some real sunshine [i am light sensitive i need the sun to shine to feel happy] whatever the cause is...stay strong :) C

Verna Lantz said...

This too shall pass. It will be better, just hang on. :)

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

Winter blues. Just hunker down and keep out of everyone's path! I think you're smart to know when to sequester yourself!

Wisconsin Girl said...

I TOTALLY get it:) And I've had to put myself in "timeout" a few times too when I feel I just get too nasty for no reason. Sometimes I get sick of hearing myself rant and I just go to my room to get some space. And yes, this winter sucks and just keeps going and going. Maybe your trip to Jamaica is what will break our weather pattern! Have a WONDERFUL time with your hubby and pray you don't have to come back to do an Easter egg hunt in the snow!

Dawn said...

Sorry you haven't been feeling your best. We all have those "off days". I think the short month of February makes everything wacky. I was late this month too, and even started thinking I was pregnant (even though it's not possible)then was sad when I wasn't. Yay, for vacation!

Kat said...

Dawn- Isn't that funny? Even though I was completely freaked out at the possibility of having another child I was also a little disappointed that I wasn't. Good grief. ;)

Kelly said...

I've felt kind of "off" this week too and for no special reason. Your vacation will probably be good for your soul and get you recharged.

We are considering taking the boys to the Dells this summer. I haven't been there since I was a kid. Any great suggestions or links you could toss my way? Definitely want to hit a waterpark or two and are interested in zip lining. We had friends zip line last summer and their little guy is Aiden's age and was able to do that. We've had a hard time finding a place where Aiden would be old enough. Open to any other suggestions. Thanks!

Kat said...

Kelly- Oh boy! Do I have the suggestions for you. I'll have to email you. :)

Rima said...

Dude. I really think it's the PMS. And the weather. It will all be better soon, you'll see!

imbeingheldhostage said...

Wow do I love that you are human :) You could possibly be under a bit of stress- don't worry, it will all be a vague memory when you're soaking up that sunshine. Sun deficiency is no joke Kat, and I think we're all sick of the snow. Now, be nice to you xx

imbeingheldhostage said...

Wow do I love that you are human :) You could possibly be under a bit of stress- don't worry, it will all be a vague memory when you're soaking up that sunshine. Sun deficiency is no joke Kat, and I think we're all sick of the snow. Now, be nice to you xx

Kat said...

Jeri- Um yeah. It is stress too. I just wrote a list off all the stuff I have to get done by Friday. I still have to wrap all of Tommy's gifts, make his cake, I have to help Joey with a massive project to hand in before our spring break, I need to visit about 6 local businesses and ask for donations for our school's annual fundraiser, I have to go shopping, pack everyone's bags, and a million other tiny little things that I won't even write down here. I have had such a headache for the past few days and I have a stupid sty in my eye too. Stress.
Such dumb stuff to stress over too, but there it is.

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CC said...

Well it could be worse! I'm now every THREE weeks, and I haven't had a break in over 25 years!!!!!!!! Arrrgh!! And my friend doctor wants me to decrease my Advil during those every 3 week visits bc she says I'm ruining my kidneys.

Oh... and no vacation for me coming up! Well,that's not true, I do get Spring break next week but I'll be working at home with kids!

maggie said...

I haven't visited your blog in so long. Just wanted to say hi and that I can't believe how big your kids are! So cute.

Elaine Alguire said...

RELAX. And take a deep breath and enjoy your time away!!!

lime said...

i feel ya. since my thyroid went berserk my hormones have been a mess. never in my entire life have i had pms like i had last week. i described it as wanting to rip the windpipes out of people for no good reason. awful, just awful.

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