Friday, August 18, 2017

Feeling Anxious


I spent much of the week running to the store, one kid at a time, buying school supplies. After each kid had the supplies they needed we went through, labeled everything, and packed it into a bag to take to the Open House at school. 

But this year is definitely a first.

This year I had to prepare my own school supplies. I didn't have a huge list like they did but I did have to get my books (good grief, was that expensive!), a backpack, and a few folders and notebooks.

Today we finished up the school supply prep and lined up everyone's supplies neatly in the library. My supplies were right in the middle of it all. It kind of gave me a momentary freak out. This is happening. It's getting real.

It is a year of change with Joe starting high school and me going back to school. There is so much going on that I question how well I will be able to keep up with it all. Joe is on cross country, Ben and Tommy are on football, and Grace is starting dance. Not to mention all the school activities. I don't want to miss any of it. It makes me emotional thinking about it. I don't want my stuff to get in the way of soaking up as much of my kids, while they are still kids, as I can.

So much going through my head. I just hope I'm up to the challenge of it all.

As much as I dreaded taking Chemistry this summer it really did turn out to be for the best. It was a big self esteem boost to do well in something that I always thought I was bad at. I did so well that I got an email from the college asking if I would be a tutor (a paid position) for other Chemistry students. That was somewhat of a shock. A happy shock.

So this is happening. It's coming. I have one full week left of summer and I hope to use that week well. Hanging with the kiddos, relaxing, swimming, maybe even a few little day trips. I want to make the most of this week.

It's getting real.

8 comments:

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

Love how organized you are, every student's bag in place ready to go. No small task. I hope you have a terrific fall with your school and your kids.

Bijoux said...

I just got home from taking my son back to college for his LAST semester!!! This was my last first day!! I'm a bit happy about that! My final purchase was a shower curtain today at Target. Hooray!

betty said...

Wow! Quite a collection there of supplies needed! You will do just fine in school. I hope you periodically update how everything is going with you returning to school because I'm rooting for you! Wishing you ALL a successful school year!

betty

Tabor said...

Every generation seems to get more complicated. One would think that sending the kids off with food, gym clothes and a computer would suffice in these days. You are at a rich time. You may miss a few things, but please do not try to be perfect. Be willing to compromise now that you are working on your career. Give it first choice.

Kat said...

GG- Thank you! I hope you and your boys have a wonderful school year too!

Kat said...

Wow! A final school purchase. That's huge! Congrats! (knowing me I would probably bawl)

Kat said...

Thank you, Betty! I will try to keep you all posted.

Kat said...

Tabor- I will definitely try to compromise on the vision in my head. I just really hate to miss anything with my kids.

Words To Live By

Be grateful for each new day.
A new day that you have never lived before.
Twenty-four new, fresh, unexplored hours to use usefully and profitably.
We can squander, neglect, or use them.
Life will be richer or poorer by the way we use today.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could;
some blunders and absurdities crept in;
forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day.
You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be
encumbered with your old nonsense.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson